The Lord is Faithful!

God is so faithful!

After my relationship with Scott ended a little over a year ago, it was a difficult few months for me. I finally got over it and was getting back on my feet when he called me over Christmas break and again over spring break and expressed that he thought he may still have feelings for me. I wasn't sure how I felt about that, and my mixed feelings taunted me. On one hand, the woman in me enjoyed the prospect of being pursued once again. However, the larger part of me knew that he was not the man I wanted in my life, and I struggled between my selfish desire to be romanced and the greater calling that the Lord had placed on my heart.

The situation had kind of fizzled over the past month, which confirmed all the more in my heart that I needed to tell Scott that I didn't want to pursue anything. The Lord provided me with the courage when my brother called me Sunday night and flat-out asked me my feelings about him. I stated my case for not wanting to go any further with Scott, with the biggest reason being that I know I want a strong man of Christ in my life who matches my personality better than he did. Well, God knew I needed this prodding and this outlet to process my feelings verbally in preparation for the work he was about to do. The next day Scott called me, explaining that he is pursuing another woman and they are dating. I started crying, but not out of sadness. These were tears of joy, of the realization that the Lord is so faithful to answer our prayers! I have been begging the Lord for closure in this relationship, and he has given it to me and given me the grace to be joyful about it.

Praise Him for this door closed and another opened. The door has been opened to a life without this weight upon me. I am so excited for this next stage in my life, in the story that God is writing for me. Who knows, perhaps another relationship is around the corner and I'm completely clueless? Or perhaps this is a time when God has other plans for me. Regardless, I am already enjoying this new stage. Let's do this, Lord!